I think, if today was a school student, I would give it a C.
Going back to The Cup and resetting was good. I had breakfast, and I ate the entire lunch/snack jar! 🙂
Awesome, right? Mostly.
Of course, you know what I did, don’t you? Same thing I did when I was learning to eat dinner… I halved my breakfast.
I might have enjoyed the snack, maybe. The almonds were a tiny bit stale, but I kind of liked them better that way- less crunchy.
I continued to feel dehydrated/headachy all day and drank 5000 ml of water, an emergen-c packet and a nuun tab.
** I was going to post numbers here, but decided maybe I should stop doing that. Let’s just say… The bottom line today was ugly. But I ate 3 meals and didn’t puke. So we’ll call it a tentative win.
I was happy with my yoga. Mentally, I had a kick ass practice- lots of self love, classmate love, yoga love. The good stuff.
Physically. It was meh. My stomach hurt a little. I have been extremely stiff in the mid spine all week- which is a bit unusual for me but who knows. I’m still convinced my left hip/SI is out. And I was reallllly dizzy throughout the standing series. However, I think it might be an inner ear issue more than a food issue and related to all of the tinnitus lately. Once we got to the floor, and I didn’t have to try to balance I hit the yoga zone. Everything just felt GOOD!!!
And I sure needed it, after the crazy HR meeting today! No hat, no scarf (well, I can have a scarf around my neck but not on my head), ear muffs are grey area- no one has ever asked to wear them inside the building before. Blankets, snuggies and space heaters are all acceptable options. My gloves are also acceptable. The only way to get the time off for appointments is intermittent FMLA. I was pissed at first, but actually think that will be ok. It just takes a long time to set up and I can’t take time off until it’s done… Which is kinda scary. But when it is, Dr. J will be covered, if I get freaky mid-week I’ll be able to schedule a last minute appointment without creating drama at work, any other appointments will be covered, zen tangle, late due to breakfast freak out and I would have been able to go home to eat the day the microwave broke without getting in trouble. Once it’s set up, I think it’ll be a good thing.
The HR person said to me “wow! You are super tiny!” Which was odd. I also got the feeling she was a little bit laughing at me the whole time. Anorexia is so misunderstood! Honestly, I don’t much care what she thinks. I know the truth. I know that if I could “just get better” I would have done it years ago. I know that I am doing everything I can to change my life.