I am lonely.
The film I live with is gone.
All of the families I work for are off for the holiday.
Well, I’m dog-sitting for one family and have the family we live with’s puppy.
But no humans.
I got tired of the New Years weight loss bombardment…. And seeing all of my “friends” having fun.
So I deactivated my Facebook.
Yoga has been weird holiday hours, with only early classes, and I can’t take care of all the dogs and make it there.
I thought maybe I’d ride my Trikke to RAM. The weather is beautiful outside. I showered and went to get ready…
I’m just ALWAYS alone.
If I go to RAM, I’ll just be alone in public.
At least, if I stay home, I can be lonely in private.
I keep trying so hard to fix my life.
But I don’t even know what I’m trying to accomplish. What’s the point, when no one even remembers that I exist. Unless their kids or dogs need something.
I wish I was better at “friends”